February GBOMB

Good

Lifting. I've been working with a trainer to make some progress and hopefully do a power lifting meet sometime this year. It feels good to push hard.

Work. They're going to pay for a TESOL certification for me. My supervisor gives me great feedback often. It's just nice to be somewhere that I am seen.

Birthday. Friends came for my potluck and sound bath. It was a lovely time. I'm grateful I have women willing to give so much time to me.


Gifts. Matthew did really great for my birthday and Valentine's Day.


Grounding mat, red light, and walks. I've been able to do all of these things consistently. I've even brought my grounding mat to work. And I feel like it has all helped me tolerate winter so much better.


Bad

Illness. AJ had his first bout with vomiting this month, and diarrhea actually. I got whatever he had, but really just the whole thing was so awful. He was hungry but we knew it wouldn't be good for him to eat. We had lots of sheet changes and extra laundry. It was right in time for my birthday party so I had to reschedule. Just rough all around, and Matthew took the brunt of it as he cared for both of us and missed a lot of work to keep AJ home. 

Illness trauma. AJ has struggled with poop since having diarrhea. He first wouldn't poop on the regular toilet, had poop accidents on the floor, and now needs us to be with him while he poops. I feel bad the illness did such a number on him.

Daycare. Just a complete stressful disaster this month. We paid for a week of care on 2/3, but his daycare lady had to go to AZ for her grandpa's funeral. She came back on 2/18 and charged us for another full week, which I gently pushed back on. Her contract says we don't pay for family emergency closures. But she didn't give in, saying we pay for his spot. But that doesn't apply when she is CLOSED. So frustrating. And then having him puke and poop at our neighbor's house. And then having another lady watch him and having him come home really stinky. Just bad. All bad. 


On My Brain

Assertiveness. I'm still just figuring out how to navigate being assertive without burning bridges. The daycare situation has me feeling very aware of my shortfalls in this area. I hope time just makes me more comfortable being assertive.

Aging. I really like getting older. I like feeling more comfortable with who I am and less concerned with what others think.

Fertility. I have started the process of visiting a hormone wellness center that focuses on autoimmune issues. I hope I am heard. I hope we can explore solutions and root causes. I hope it helps lay the groundwork for success with whatever fertility path we take. I'm still not sure what our next steps are.

Politics and social media. It's just a lot. Everyone has something to say about everything that's happening. I am so sad about so many things I see happening politically. I have a trust that things will work out. But I don't know how we will get there and why there has to be so much sadness.

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