April GBOMB

Good

Weather. I love spring. Days like today (April 29) when it is 67 and sunny with clean air? Nothing better. I don't think I'd ever get tired of this weather if it happened every day. But then I love a good rainy and cloudy day to break it all up. I do not love the wind. So if that could go away, I'd be the happiest. 

Work. I feel like I am in the swing of things. I know what my job is and what's expected, and feel like I can do it without much help. I'm still working on my TESOL and have started to help with new hire orientation which is fun. 

New opportunities. This house rental we're moving into is a major downsize for us. But I'm trying to focus on it as a stepping stone, and find the good things about it, like a yard! I really am excited for a fire pit and a deck. (Does it trump the loss of a bathroom, living room space, a laundry room, two storage areas, lots of kitchen cabinet space, counter space/mounted microwave, a shelf above the laundry, etc.? We will see!)

AJ's birthday party. I'll be honest, I'm not a party planner. I don't enjoy it. But AJ was SO excited waiting for his friends to arrive at the park. And aside from the wind, and some last minute folks saying they were sick, it was overall a success. He is so loved. 

Bad

Moving. I hate it. I started packing over a week ahead of time. We move on Saturday, and there's still SO MUCH to pack. I've been packing from 6-10pm every evening. The constant thoughts in my head of not being able to have it all done on time, feeling behind, etc. just would not stop. I did my best to reassure myself that it would all be fine, and really there wasn't a huge amount of urgency. If we have MOST of it ready by Saturday morning, we can handle any lingering items ourselves. It's not like someone's moving in on Sunday. The decision fatigue about what to toss, donate, sell, store, or bring with us has been too much. I want to burn all our stuff. 

Renting. Trying to rent our condo has been stressful. I do not love showing people my boxed up home. I do not love the guilt I feel about the renters I don't want. 

Illness. Today (4/29) marks just about three weeks I've been feeling like garbage. Granted, the last two or three days I've felt much better. But allergies are still kicking my butt, and I still can't really breathe at night. Just wild how awful I felt. I didn't want to take antibiotics, and by the time I was ready to give in six days later, Matthew had already started them because he got sick too. Just a long month of feeling subpar. I missed two weeks of lifting, which stinks. 

No naps. Everyone knows three year olds have big feelings. But without a nap, the feelings are even bigger, and more frequent. AJ does not nap most days. But then he gets tired around 6pm, and we feel it. We try to ride the waves as best we can, but we know he does better when he has a nap! 

On My Brain

Economy. Whose brain is not on the economy? It's impacting my company. They're cutting lots of perks and events that really drew me in from the get go. I worry if they get to the point of layoffs, I'd be one of the first to go. 

Being present. It's hard not to feel like "once things calm down, it'll be better/easier." AJ's birthday party felt like a hurdle I had to get past. Moving feels like another hurdle. I try to be conscious of the fact and just be present and not wish all my time away. It is hard. 

Sinus issues. We're almost at 5.5 years of dealing with Mucus Lucas (MRSA in my sinus). After realizing that oregano comes in capsules, I'm wondering if ingesting that regularly could help. And now I want to take it a step further and put a drop or two of oregano oil in some sinus rinses and see if it will get rid of MRSA. It's on my brain.