January GBOMB

Good

Acupressure mat. Matthew got me an acupressure mat for Christmas. It hurts in the first few minutes but ends up feeling so good at the end. I do feel like it helps with general back and neck pain. I am hoping it helps with the sensitivity I feel in some areas like my glutes. 

Home buying. We have been casually looking at homes, but we weren't in a rush. Then our landlord said he wanted to sell, so we decided to look more intently. The home I had loved and admired on Zillow since September was still on the market. And the same day we looked at it, we put in an offer. The next day, we were under contract. I am so grateful and excited. There's a lot more to this story, and it is probably worth its own post. But it seems like so many things worked in our favor to make this happen. Manifestation. Divine intervention. All the things. 

Raise and promotion. The day we went under contract on our new home, I was told I was getting a promotion/title change and a 5.89% increase. Again, I'm so grateful for the timing on this. I'm grateful to be at a company that rewards work and talent. 

Rest. I am proud that I have taken the chance to rest a few times this month, including a couple of naps, reading on my acupressure mat, and using my red light. I also am trying to remember to do castor oil on my stomach at night (for endometriosis). Building some systems so that I can have a minute to relax has made a big difference. 

Deductible. We have met our deductible. It's helping with prescriptions. And now I want to look at therapy costs and such. Not sure though with our impending enormous mortgage. 

Bad

Home loan. Some things came up during the home loan qualification process that made things so much harder, more stressful, and limited our options immensely. I'm having all kinds of big feelings about it that I think will take a long time to work through. 

Pain. I just feel like something is always hurting lately. I had some severe neck pain the last couple days of January. My hands had a bunch of cuts on them. My tongue was sore? My lips are cracked and hurt. My nose hurts and is sore and dry and full of scabs. I just feel like I am so uncomfortable lately. 

Health. The amount of diarrhea and vomit we had to deal with in January, from AJ's antibiotics and then from a stomach bug... I swear. Not the best start to 2026. Grateful nothing serious is wrong, but geez man. The laundry. The puke smell. 

On My Brain

Fertility. With spending February packing and moving, I obviously won't be getting surgery. It may be on the table for April. And we've had some cycles that weren't optimal--no clear ovulation peak, therefore no trigger shot. I really feel like we nailed it in January's cycle, but no pregnancy. I'm still feeling OK about all of it, knowing we have a plan and a direction and a likely culprit. 

Home buying. Obviously with our search going from casual to serious to under contract VERY quickly, home buying is on my mind. We were mostly looking at townhomes. So many thoughts during the process. Is a move from our rental to a townhome with an extra room but no yard a lateral move? Do we just move back into the condo if we have no yard? Or is the extra room worth it? Do we take the more comfortable mortgage of a townhome, or do we really struggle for a few years to make a single family home happen, trusting it will get easier? Is it better to be house poor, or to save money for experiences? So many decisions to make, and I want to do what's right for my son. Lots on my mind. 

Sleep. I read everywhere that sleep is one of the biggest factors for infertility. It also helps blood pressure. It is necessary for just about everything. And still I have the hardest time getting myself to bed before 10:30, especially with AJ not falling asleep until 8:30 or later sometimes. I want to sleep. I just don't want to go to bed at night.