Deserving

So I'm not sure what the deal is with me always falling for guys who don't want me back.

The only conclusion I've been able to reach in the past year is that I just don't deserve the kind of guy I want, and I especially don't deserve for that kind of guy to love me.

And every time I think of all that I have to do to become deserving, I just get too discouraged and don't even want to try.

I'm tired of never "getting there." And I'm tired of not having the energy or desire to do so.

This has been the longest period of time where I have seriously considered just quitting.

(For any of you worrisome folks, I am not referring to suicide.)

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