Janae Says...

Good Pumping. On April 23 I dropped from five pumps (2+ hours pumping) to four. On April 30 I dropped from four pumps to three (about 90 min). AJ continued to nurse through four pumps. I'm interested to see what happens this week with three pumps, I just so badly want to know when our last nursing session is. We could have our last one, and he could refuse the next day, and I wouldn't have known it was our last. It's exciting to have so much time freed up, but is also a big source of anxiety. It is hard to explain, and I think only pumping moms fully get it. Breastfeeding moms of all kinds understand the bittersweet of weaning. But the anxiety of not pumping is so weird too.  Bedtime. AJ is in bed by 7:30 most nights. It gives me time to get ready for bed and wrap up, straighten up, do dishes, and more. I miss him while he sleeps (as all moms can attest), but his schedule is so helpful for my mental health.  Alternative medicine. AJ's ears have been a wreck since the Sa...

April 1 was a normal Saturday with laundry, cleaning, grocery shopping, and client check ins. Matthew went out to eat because I thought he needed a little time for himself. April 2 was an early morning with lots of meal prep. AJ discovered the crunchy couch covers and had so much fun making all kinds of noise; it was really cute. I started watching 1923. April 3 I nursed, lifted weights, and had a busy day at work. We cut out the dream feed for the first time, and it has been a dream ever since. This boy always surprises me with how adaptable he is.  April 4 was an early morning. Work was crazy. April 5 the baby magically slept until 6:25. It was a work from home day and was really hard. Naps were a disaster. I made dinner, and went and got dessert for me and Matthew. I watched Ted Lasso.  April 6 was a normal day of work. Matthew picked up pizza for us. We watched 1923. It was a beautiful day outside. April 7 was busy with laundry and cleaning. I got a lot of little things do...

Honestly, I'm really glad I started doing these. They're cathartic for me and help me see how much I'm thinking about all the time.  Good  I got a new position at work as training coordinator. It’s a good move financially. I’m also having serious imposter syndrome and am overwhelmed. So maybe this should go in the “on my brain” section. But I guess I know this is a good thing even if it’s daunting. It will give me some teaching opportunities, which I’m excited for.  AJ started taking steps at the end of March. He’s also clapping and trying to start waving. It’s so fun to watch him learn, but so sad too. The days are long, but the years are short.  We have been weaning a bottle a week. Tomorrow 4/3 we will take away another bottle and be down to two a day! This saves so much time and energy as I don’t have to scramble for breastmilk, make as many bottles in the evening, or wash as many each day. He loves solids and purées, and I’m glad at the timing of this to be done...

March 1 AJ woke up at 6:00 for once. We nursed. I did a quick lower body lifting workout. It was a work from home day. I took AJ to the KidsCare in the afternoon because he keeps rubbing his ears and occasionally fussing. They didn’t find anything wrong. It was a normal evening routine with a 7:00 bedtime.  March 2 AJ woke up at 5:10 and fussed until I came and got him at 5:45. This kid. I nursed him and walked on the treadmill. Just a normal workday and normal evening at home. But Matthew had a really good day at work, and he got me theater popcorn!  March 3 AJ once again woke up at 5:09. He has a new kind of scream to make you think he’s dying. We nursed and played on the bed before a quick treadmill walk. I had breakfast at Gourmandise with some Precision Nutrition coaches. I returned the massive Medela pump to my IBCLC Lois. I also listed our leftover baby formulas for free.  March 4 I took the baby on a walk. All three of us went to a Thai restaurant for dinner. I ha...