Janae Says...

Last night, I was going back in time in my journal to see the history of Janae and Matthew. It was January 23 when I sent a meme to him, trying to reopen conversation that had halted in the summer of 2018. I was flipping through and came to my entry on Sunday, January 27, just five days after my breakup of my previous relationship. Here’s a picture of what I wrote in my journal. Apologies for the sloppy handwriting. Here’s the deal. I had a boyfriend for all of high school: summer of 2001 to Christmas 2004. He cheated on me I believe three times. It involved a lot of lies and a lot of sneaky behavior. I was wrecked and lost around 15 pounds from not eating. It was the most painful heartbreak of my life, and it happened when I was 17. Do you know how much more I would’ve cried if someone had told me I wouldn’t be married until after age 32? Buckle up, young Janae. You got a lot of heartbreak left. After that, I dated a boy for a few months before his m

I am a little weirded out that it's September, but I feel pretty good about 2019. I'm still loving summer and sunshine and heat, and curse all of you who are anxious for fall. It's not that I don't like fall. I really do. But I just am so much happier during this time of year with so much sun and such long days. So! Let's review August 2019. On August 1, I had my packet pickup for my race the following Saturday. On Friday, August 2, Matthew and I went to Itto Sushi and drove to Midway to stay at an Airbnb for my race the next day. It was a really cute little place. It's connected to their garage behind their house. The bed wasn't awesome; it kind of bowed in the middle, so we didn't sleep super well. August 3 was my race. I didn't give this race its own post, though maybe I should've, since it's been my most difficult one to date. Not that the race itself was the hardest (I think that was the Alpine half), but the work it