Monday, December 27, 2010

Meddy Christmas

Christmas this year was much better than I expected.

I'll be honest, I've had a hard time this year getting that warm Christmas feeling inside. I tried everything. I tried decorating, listening to Christmas music, having a Christmas party, Christmas baking, Christmas shopping... That feeling that was there even a few years ago was gone. It's hard to create that kind of serenity and happiness living alone, and it's hard to do it at home in California with so much noise and brothers lacking in Christmas spirit and enthusiasm.

Nevertheless, it was a REALLY good day without problems or snags of any kind.

I received

-Pajamas and socks
-Musical note wall decor
-Dish drying mat
-Spice rack
-iPod alarm clock radio
-Victoria's Secret undies
-A long, brown sweater thing
-Magic bullet
-Soup bowl
-Measuring cups
-Scentsy burners and wax
-a NOOK!!!! woot

And that's just from my parentals.

Jared got me a memory foam pillow--I was so happy about this. I wanted one so bad.
Jake got me a dark chocolate bar.
Grandparents got me dinero.
Rachel got me Beauty and the Beast on Blu-Ray, a cookie jar, and some French milled Shea butter soap.

We have yet to go to Carmen's, and she's always got some cool gadgets for me.  That's tomorrow :)

My break has been very uneventful which makes me extremely happy. I was a little anxious about how it was going to be, but things are much better than I anticipated.

I've been playing with my Nook--downloaded Mark Twain's Autobiography which I am stoked about. I managed to get most of my stuff fit into the spare suitcase I brought along.

Going to go get ready to have lunch with Allyn and Steph! I'm very excited to see them. Yay!

Monday, December 20, 2010


A song entitled "Howl" by Florence + the Machine has a fabulous line that I cannot get out of my brain...

It goes like this:

"I drag my teeth across your chest and taste your beating heart."

Seriously? How awesome is that?

I know, right?

I wish I could write amazing song lyrics.

Le sigh.

Saturday, December 18, 2010


You know, I am a believer in that God gave us bodily and natural mechanisms to defeat the health issues we face on earth. I think the body is an amazing self-healing machine, and I think nature provides what our bodies cannot.

On Wednesday I had a freak out episode. I do that once or twice a year, where it's that bad. I hadn't even thought of calming myself down, but I should have because I know that every time I freak out like that, I get sick. It's like my stress turns into a little virus ball and immediately spreads out. Thursday after school while I was doing more fruitless laboring on behalf of my students, I could feel that scratchy feeling in my throat. That one where you go, "Uh oh."

I was pretty disappointed because I had been planning a little Christmas get together for Friday. I had much work to do and wanted the energy to really enjoy myself.

So on Thursday, I took two Airborne tablets. And I had some lemon Echinacea tea (for "throat health") with honey. I slept quite well. Friday morning I was still feeling sluggish and yucky. I had more tea, more Airborne, and some Naproxen (I like Aleve better than Ibuprofen). I made it through the school day without coughing too much, and my kids were really good for the most part. Perhaps they were sympathetic to my plight? Mm... Nah. That gives them too much credit. When I got home, I took more Airborne, more Naproxen, and more Airborne.

I made it through Friday night with enthusiasm and minimal discomfort--occasional coughs.

Here I am on Saturday morning, pretty able and ready. I can feel the stuff in my chest loosening, but my coughs are productive and not excessive. I'm not sore, my glands are normal, and I feel about the same as yesterday. I think I conquered the sickness before it could get worse than this. And I honestly give the lemon echinacea tea most of the credit. Thanks, nature.

Nevertheless, I'm going to go get To Kill a Mockingbird on DVD from Murray library (which completes my lesson planning for next week. hehe) and make a stop at my complex's office. Then I'm going to veg on my couch and watch Christmas movies--I even rented the old animated kind. All of this right after I shower and make French toast.

By the way, here are the cookies we decorated. Don't be jealous. We're professionals.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Pizza Pizza

Normal pizza order conversation:

"Thank you for calling (insert name of pizza place here), what can I do for you?"

"Hi, I'd like to place an order for pickup please."

"OK, can I get your phone number, name, etc.?"

OR "OK, order whenever you're ready."

Retarded pizza order conversation a moment ago:

"Thank you for calling (insert name of pizza place here), what can I do for you?"

"Hi, I'd like to place an order for pickup please."






"Do I need to give you my phone number or anything?"


"OK, then I want..."

Like wow, are you kidding me dude?

No, "Order whenever you're ready," or "What can I get for you?"???

Are we really going to sit in silence the rest of the night?

Oh, right. The customer has to break the silence created by your insolence.

I should've known.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

I Just Felt Like Running

Perhaps going for a 20-minute run around the cemetery after not having worked out for many moons was not my best idea.


Just some tips for the desperate...

If the skin around your eyes gets really dry, itchy, and flaky, there's not a whole lot you can do. Here is a list of things I tried:

1. Cetaphil
2. Neosporin
3. Olive Oil
4. A + D
5. Cocoa butter lotion

Of all of the above, A&D works the best. I had this Refresh stuff recommended to me, but it was too expensive and  not exactly what I was looking for.

My eyes are still extremely dry. The end

Thursday, December 9, 2010


It's time to spill the beans. The love of my life's name is...

Neville Longbottom.

Seriously. He's my homeboy.

I LOVED the new Harry Potter film (which is awesome because 5 and 6 took me a few watches). I saw it tonight in a theater with only 6 other people in it. I had the best seat in the house. And I used my gift card. $0.

It ended at a spectacular place for being cut in half.

I was so excited and so anxious as the movie began. Because even though it was an anxiously awaited step in the Harry Potter film series, it was also a step closer to the end.

Guys, I've been doing this since I was a teenager. I love Harry Potter. I really, really do.

I feel like the characters are some of my closest friends and family. Especially Hagrid. I've been through tragedy and triumph with them. I've laughed with them and cried with them.

And now it's going to be over.

I think my heart will break on the night I see the last movie. Ugh. Will it ever! *sigh*

It's cool though, I've got some Neville heroics to look forward to, right? Some Weasley and Granger heroics. Some Potter heroics. A little 'a this. A little 'a that.

Annnnnd it's time for bed. Obviously.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Church and Rice Krispie Treats

I tried my hand at Rice Krispie Treats tonight.

They came out OK. I couldn't get the marshmallow to spread evenly. Not sure how to make that better in the future.

Apparently they only stay good for a day or two tops. So I packaged up two for each of my TAs as a Christmas thank you. Cute, huh? I'm so nice. Pretty sure everyone wants to be my TA.

For the last month or so I have really struggled in my faith. I won't get into it suffice it to say that troubles with my younger brother and other personal things have just made it really hard for me.

I've felt my heart harden, felt a resistance to repent, felt my desire to go to church waning, felt the Spirit distancing itself from me, felt like prayer doesn't matter, and felt my scripture study decreasing in importance and frequency. I suppose we all go through times like this for different reasons.

On Sunday I decided to fast for myself, for a change... To feel humbled, to be able to sincerely repent, to have my heart softened, and have the Spirit return to me.

Ladies and gents, I tell ya... I think my testimony in pretty much everything increased yesterday.

In my fast, all it took was the sacrament hymn, "With Humble Heart," to get me to totally break down in tears. Already my heart had softened. I could feel the importance of the Savior's atonement for me, and the broken heart and contrite spirit that I needed to bring the atonement into play.

Every Sunday during sacrament I read Isaiah 53. This time I read each verse slowly and cried after nearly every single one. Testimony of the scriptures? Increased.

Then I met with the bishop for tithing settlement. I thought it would be a quick 5-minute one. I try not to be wordy, especially when the bishop has so many others to get through. But at this point my testimony of the priesthood, priesthood leadership, prayer, and fasting all increased. In what was supposed to be a, "Yep I pay my tithing" interview, the bishop saw right through my smiles and "I'm good"s. He knew something was up and pretty much blindsided me with knowing that there was something I wasn't saying. He told me that, "There was something behind my eyes" that told him I had more to say. I didn't think on that day that I was ready to say what I needed to say, but I guess if he saw it in me then the Lord knew I was ready.

The bishop is having everyone set a goal for the new year. Mine is to renew my temple recommend and visit the temple twice per month. I've got a ways to go. But I've come from much farther behind before!

I tell ya... When I feel so unworthy of forgiveness and so far away from and so unloved by the Lord, He's got a way of making me do a big 180.

The Savior lives. Heavenly Father loves us. He gave us His son, so that we could be with Him again. This is no small act of love.

"And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock." (Matt 7:25)

Sometimes parts of my foundation slip into the sand. I ought not to let it get so far.