Janae Says...

I want to take Polynesian Dance in the spring. Tuition is $209 per credit hour for spring. Dance = .5 credits. So $104.50? I'm not sure if it works that way. I am also thinking about taking bowling. Also .5 credit. This is what I should expect. A skill test and a written test. Will it take the fun out of bowling? I'm not sure. Dance? Bowling? Just dance? Both? Thoughts? Also, keep me in your prayers. I'm a big faker, and I feel everything but stable right now. Thanks.

I need to focus on good things or I will die today. My Fall grades are one good thing... I might take Polynesian dance in the spring. I have a good job in a time of economic crisis. I saw and heard a flock of geese flying over me last night; I got out of my car just in time to see them. There is sunshine today, and the birds are chirping and singing. I finished a fabulous novel. I always have more steam than I think. I have an amazing friend named Rachel who is 110% there for me, supportive of me, and honest with me. I have a knowledge of the true and lasting gospel of Jesus Christ, my Savior. I can fix everything that's wrong through Him.

So here's the thing: My office (Institutional Assessment and Analysis) just moved. We moved from the BEST location on campus. I'm convinced. The only thing that may have come close to a better location would be the library, since it's near pretty much everything. (Faculty Office Building--near everything else, circled in red. Abraham Smoot Building--away from everything else, X-shaped, circled in green.) We were at the Faculty Office Building. This location was ideal because: It was located right at the top of the stairs I climb up to get onto campus (so I could drop my food off at work in the morning before class). It was located 30 seconds away from the Joseph F. Smith Building (JFSB), where, as an English major, most of my classes are held. I could avoid crowds because, hey, my office was right across the street from everything. Let me just digress for a moment here about how I am so NOT a large crowd type of person. It's been so frustrating to arrive to class all sw...

It's weird how having someone that you love and who loves you back, having that special someone, that significant other, completely alters everything. No matter where you are, what you're doing, or how you look, you feel safe and secure. You never feel alone. Someone is waiting to hear all about your day. Someone is waiting to hug you and kiss you. Someone is waiting to find out what you two are going to do for dinner. Someone appreciates your random phone call. Then when that is gone... When it's taken away, suddenly the world is huge. The spaces around you are enormous. The people around you are looking at you, evaluating you. And for the first time in a long time, you actually care. You don't have that security and that love anymore, so you focus on the terrible things some stranger might be thinking about you. Suddenly it matters that you have a bad hair day or that you're not wearing makeup. Suddenly you've got no one to call on the spur of the moment. And ...