Sunday, June 6, 2010


"And inasmuch as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me."

I will never know the suffering Christ feels on everyone's behalf.

But as I've said before, I think one of my "gifts" is to empathize and sympathize with people, their experiences, their joys, their pain... So I can understand very minimally, feeling for those I love.

There was recent violence in my family, between my two brothers, in fact. It might seem normal to some, but this kind of violence is uncanny, heartbreaking, and anger-filled violence.

Hearing about this made my heart shatter. I've tried to ignore it all night and tried to distract myself with other things, with laughter, but the problem still exists.

I can't believe Satan's grasp on this world, especially through drugs, and how they change people. Drugs do such terrible things to people, drive people to do the worst possible things... Like hurting family members.

I love my family. I love my brothers. I love my parents. I so want to be with them in eternity. When I imagine hurting one of them on purpose--actually I can't imagine doing such a thing. If I've even said something to hurt a family member it makes me feel ashamed and guilty and sad. I can't imagine hurting any one of them on purpose, especially physically.

When Christ says, "Ye have done it unto me," I feel that way about my family. When one brother hurt the other one... I felt like it had been done to me. I suffer on their behalf--both of them. I hurt for both of my brothers. My heart aches, my stomach clenches, the tears fall. I don't really know what to do with myself, feeling so hurt like this.

How could you? How could you ever hurt someone you love? How far do you have to go to feel badly about it? To feel regret? What has to happen before you wake up and change, Jason? You hurt everyone around you.

The saddest part is that you don't even know it; and that even if you did know it, I'm not sure you'd care.


StacyB said...

Amen to those words daughter.

Lisa Petrarca said...

You are so right Nae. Drugs turn people into a person we no longer recognize.

They seem to be "completely overtaken," as if they are trapped inside a body that they are no longer in control of.

That being said, there comes a time when all you can do is pray for them daily. Turn them COMPLETELY over to the Lord, then have faith. He can intercede on behalf of your faithfulness.

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:6-7

I found this quote/scripture references too:

The Word of God is full of accounts describing the power of prayer in various situations. The power of prayer has overcome enemies (Psalm 6:9-10), conquered death (2 Kings 4:3-36), brought healing (James 5:14-15), and defeated demons (Mark 9:29). God, through prayer, opens eyes, changes hearts, heals wounds, and grants wisdom (James 1:5)

Love you & I too am praying daily for your family!