Friday, December 11, 2009

Missing Out

Sometimes I think that I'm not living my life to its fullest.

There are things I want that I don't go after. Because I'm afraid.

I am afraid of the unknown. Afraid of failure.

I like a planned and structured life. It's where I'm comfortable.

And my responsibility runs my life.

"In the summer, I shouldn't travel or do something fun. I should plan for the next school year. I should have two jobs. I should work out every day."

I wonder if I should make a New Year's resolution to be more daring.

To run after the things I want.

To stop caring about things I should be doing. And to stop worrying about what might happen.


Atul said...

that rings some bells in my ear as well!

Hambone Jacobs said...

I sometimes feel that way too. :)

I wrote in my blog btw... I have started doing it more frequently. It had been a year since the last time. Crazy huh? :)

I love your guts Janae. Hugs fo u! :)

Brett said...

You're "shoulding" on yourself. I used to do that until I was completely paralyzed and felt like I never did anything right. I'll be careful in choosing between sin and righteousness, but focusing on "should" and "shouldn't" only hurts me.

Brett said...

In other words... do what you want! Be crazy! Wooo!

Karli Woolley said...

we are the same.