Missing Out

Sometimes I think that I'm not living my life to its fullest.

There are things I want that I don't go after. Because I'm afraid.

I am afraid of the unknown. Afraid of failure.

I like a planned and structured life. It's where I'm comfortable.

And my responsibility runs my life.

"In the summer, I shouldn't travel or do something fun. I should plan for the next school year. I should have two jobs. I should work out every day."

I wonder if I should make a New Year's resolution to be more daring.

To run after the things I want.

To stop caring about things I should be doing. And to stop worrying about what might happen.

Comments

Atul said…
that rings some bells in my ear as well!
December 11, 2009 at 9:09 AM
Hambone Jacobs said…
I sometimes feel that way too. :)

I wrote in my blog btw... I have started doing it more frequently. It had been a year since the last time. Crazy huh? :)

I love your guts Janae. Hugs fo u! :)
December 12, 2009 at 7:30 PM
Brett said…
You're "shoulding" on yourself. I used to do that until I was completely paralyzed and felt like I never did anything right. I'll be careful in choosing between sin and righteousness, but focusing on "should" and "shouldn't" only hurts me.
December 18, 2009 at 12:54 PM
Brett said…
In other words... do what you want! Be crazy! Wooo!
December 18, 2009 at 12:54 PM
Kar said…
we are the same.
January 4, 2010 at 11:41 AM
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