Janae Says...

OK, seriously? This is like the cutest thing ever. I'm not sure I'd want it done for me, but I did tear up watching it done for someone else!

"Shocks... Pegs... Lucky..." I'm in an extremely good mood today. I had a lot of fun with my students and was on a roll making my sixth period die with laughter. Sometimes I'm glad my face is funny for me. I just give a puzzled or weird look and they all start giggling. Pretty convenient. Also, tons of my students told me how much they "love my bangs" and "love my hair cut" and that they "like my hair straight." Some also told me that I look really pretty today. How cute are they? Thanks, my loves.

It was so special. So intense. It made my heart race. How could it not? It was, after all, my first time... Getting a speeding ticket. That's right. Age 22 and recent recipient of my first speeding ticket. Utahans drive like morons. Just so all of you know. I was a little frustrated tonight, having to go around every moron there was because no one is courteous; they do not move over. They probably don't even notice you behind them. Let's be honest. They were going 63 in the fast lane. SIXTY THREE. I mean, come on, people. You'd get a little frustrated too, right? So like I said, since everyone's stupid (and I'm impatient) and won't move over, I was being a little aggressive. I had my cruise control set at 78, like I always do. I do mean always. 78 is fast, but it's not 80. I never, ever go above 78. I move over all the time for people going faster than me. Anyway, it was set at 78. I saw the flashing lights behind me and had a miniature...

I dried my hair today, and my bangs dried pretty straight across my forehead. I decided to go with it. And I cut them straight. Not sure yet if it's a good choice, but I think I like it. Check my Frankenstein pic! Ha. Sorry. I just can't do like serious or sexy photos. They make me giggle. Do you like my cute smile? Me too. ohp . Fine here is a real picture for you guys.  I think I like it. It makes my hair look longer and is a more stark contrast between my dark hair and light eyes. Blind date tonight. We'll see how it goes.

I've taken the Color Code test before. But I took it again just to make sure I was what I thought. I am a super blue personality. 65%, in fact. Check it out: Blues are motivated by Intimacy. They seek to genuinely connect with others, and need to be understood and appreciated. Everything they do is quality-based. They are loyal friends, employers, and employees. Whatever or whomever they commit to is their sole (and soul) focus. They love to serve and give of themselves freely in order to nurture others' lives. Blues have distinct preferences and have the most controlling personality. Their personal code of ethics is remarkably strong and they expect others to live honest, committed lives as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful moments in conversation as well as paying close attention to special life events (e.g. birthdays and anniversaries). Blues are dependable, thoughtful, and analytical; but can also be self-righteous, worry-prone, and moody. They are "sainted p...

I watched The Invention of Lying with my friend Camille the other night. I thought it was clever and fun, but had some big holes for me. I couldn't draw the parallel between being truthful and being shallow. Since it's set in a place where no one knows how to lie--they only tell the truth, people say exactly what they think whenever they think it. I had two issues with this. One is that the things they'd express were usually surface-level assessments of others. I can see how immediate impressions and thoughts can come upon people, and that these thoughts are usually superficial and judgmental. But I can't see that being the only thing people think about when looking at others. The second issue was that I don't see how truthfulness inherently means that people will always express their honest opinion whenever they feel like it. I'll give my honest opinion of something, but if it's a mean one, I usually wait until I'm asked. So basically the implicat...

"My Immortal" I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these ye...

Dear Justin Williams, Thanks for auditioning for American Idol tonight. Being that you live only 30 minutes from me, I was hoping I could interest you in marrying me. The things I love about you are: your beautiful, scruffy face, your lovely blue eyes, your Nephi-like stature, your amazing singing voice, and the fact that you sang, "Feeling Good," in your audition. Let's set a date, my dear. Sincerely, Janae Really though, I love American Idol. I know the process sucks. I know it's rigged as all get out. I know its downfalls, OK? But all of the amazing talent that I get to witness who did get through to the judges' round makes it so worth it. I love So You Think You Can Dance. I love to watch bodies move and express emotion. It brings something out in me sometimes; I sit in amazement at the things those dancers do. But I've grown up on music . I love voices. They touch me deep in my soul. Something about smooth tones, good vibes, unique sounds, spe...

Sometimes at night or early in the morning when I go potty, I get scared that someone who has been hiding for some undetermined amount of time will open the curtain and jump out at me, threatening me allthewhile bursting out obscenities while I'm just trying to do my business. Also, American Idol starts tonight. And I am inexplicably excited. kthxbai.

It started with trying to get the top off of some incense oil.  What more logical way to do it than with these? My stupidity led to this (warning, bloody pictures follow):   But don't worry. I have Neosporin. And Bandaids. Don't worry that when I was eight years old, I tried to get some butter for my toast while the butter was still cold. The butter knife slid right off the butter and into my left thumb which was holding the plate at the time. I have a nasty scar from a butter knife. It even cost us an emergency trip so that they could say I don't need stitches. And now on my right thumb from child's scissors. I'm super smart.

A few minutes ago I put my computer to sleep. Then I remembered I needed to double check on movie times for tomorrow. So I used my phone because I have quick access to movie times. There was a little square ad at the bottom that said, "Find friendship or LOVE in your area." Typical little ad. Then in the right corner of that ad, it said, "Club M8." Then I started busting up laughing. 12:40 AM, empty apartment, alone in my room, dying with laughter. I then realized how very good it felt to laugh like that. And also realized how it's been a really long time. So, the next time you're feeling down, check out Club M8 for a good time.

Not really. But I did get a pair of solid black Vans like I've been wanting since the school year began. I'm happy I made that choice on Saturday. I've been walking in comfort ever since. Except for the first day because my left foot is bigger than my right foot (the heart side?) and my left shoe was super tight. It's all good now. In other news, my lovely friend Caitlin bought me some Sensual Amber body cream from Bath & Body Works a couple birthdays ago. I've since wanted the matching body spray because I hate having mismatching sets. So they were out of the spray on Saturday, but I bought the perfume which came with a free lotion. Then I couldn't resist the miniature Sensual Amber shower gel, so I got that. Then there were foaming handsoaps (Kitchen Lemon scented!) for $3 that I couldn't resist either. Conclusion: Prepare to spend money if you go into Bath & Body Works. Too much good stuff there. I've started off the new year right by atte...

I think we are constantly learning. Like, all the time. But we mortal beings are too thick headed to catch on the first time. So I've learned for the 1,578th time that I need to leave it all up to the Lord. I'll get what He knows I need, in His due time. And I need to be patient. Thanks, patriarchal blessing . I'm learning again that only the Lord's opinion matters.  And I'm learning that all I can do is my best, and let the Lord make up for where I fall short. (Plus hope others forgive my shortcomings.) I've also learned that imperfection can be used as an excuse to remain imperfect. I've chosen not to do that. So today, I took a gigantic step forward, for the first time since I was a Beehive (I can't believe I'm putting this on my blog; I'm so, so ashamed, seriously). I received my limited temple recommend . I'm not perfect. I haven't been perfect, ever. I never will be. And I can keep using that as an excuse to stay at my...

I honestly don't know if I'll be able to love again. To open myself and my heart in a way that it needs to be in order to sustain a healthy, reciprocating relationship. I've been taken advantage of, walked all over, and lied to too many times by individuals whom I would have done (and probably still would do) anything for. What's more, I've had all of these things done to me multiple times by the same people. I guess I'm the moron for ever having given so much to begin with--for not seeing what was actually there. I don't want to trust. I don't want to love. I never get what I give in return. Never to the same degree. I only get hurt. The pattern shows that that's what will always happen. Anything in the future is only a risk to me. And we all know I'm not good at taking risks . I'm not in a much better place at the start of this year than I was last year. I think that's what has me so discouraged. Repeat mistakes, repeat pain,...

OK. Legion Iron Man 2 Alice in Wonderland Salt Robin Hood The Lightning Thief The Sorcerer's Apprentice Daybreakers The Road Book of Eli Edge of Darkness Planet 51 Plus those I haven't seen yet like: The Blind Side Princess and the Frog This is It Fantastic Mr. Fox Up in the Air Zombieland Christmas Carol I'm pretty sure my movie entertainment is at a high right now. I saw Avatar and Pirate Radio the other day. I saw Sherlock Holmes yesterday. I'm seeing Invictus in about an hour. I've also decided to endorse polyandry, as I now have over 12 husbands and 7 boyfriends or so. Sam Worthington, Chris Pine, Brandon Boyd, Hugh Jackman, and Johnny Depp, to name a few. I also decided after seeing the movie Inkheart, that I have an ever increasing level of attraction to Paul Bettany. Let's ignore the rodent, shall we? And just focus on the fact that he is totally lovely. I'm not sure whether it was the tan, the long hair, the char...