Alone

I am going to be alone forever.

Seriously.

Anytime I allow myself to think differently, I am quickly reminded of how stupid I am.

I always get put back in my place.

"No, Janae. You were being dumb. It's never going to happen for you. Aw, what was that? You hoped for a little while that something might work out? That someone would be truthful and actually follow through in his intention to give you what he says you deserve? That's sweet. How cute of you to let yourself be hopeful."

EFF you, boys.

Eff you all. Seriously.

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