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Today was so good. I woke up more exhausted than I have all week. Five to six hours of sleep is just not good enough. But it's really hard to get in bed before 11:30. Nevertheless, I got myself up and went. Tanner was there on time for me, before 6 AM. He's so cute. Today was leg/bum/ab day. So I did the hip abductors, and also some lunges, calf raises, leg curls, leg extensions, and the leg press. I did crunches, leg lifts, and the ab curl machine thing, plus I tried to work on my love handles a little bit. Anyway, I really like leg day, I think it's fun. I did the interval course on the elliptical with Tanner for 15 minutes! :) It was fun, I did really well. I scratched my knuckle probably a week and a half ago on my laundry hamper, and since my hands are so dry from this weather, it is not healing. It's really bad. I should put a band-aid on it. After the gym Tanner and I went our separate ways, but he came over for a little bit after he got ready for work to have br...

I have some things to say before I feel like I can focus on this research paper proposal I should have written yesterday. Day 3 of exercise and second time in a cycle class went really, really well. I was surprised. It was really hard for me to get out of bed. I woke up several times last night. One of the times was because I fell out of my bed. Yeah. WTF? I was so confused, partly dreaming, and I finally figured out that what I thought I had seen wasn't real, and climbed back into bed. I'm also experiencing my monthly womanly inconveniences, which I didn't think would make that bike seat any more of a pleasant experience for me. But I have to say that this class went really well. I pushed it really hard, almost to the point of dizziness, but I managed to keep myself stable. The instructor today was a lot more challenging than Amy on Monday. I've always been very good at pushing myself physically, sometimes a little beyond my capacity, so to have the extra instruction a...

Well, day two of Tanner and I's gym goals was a success. We got up, and I was there at 6:02 AM, and Tanner, about five minutes after. Nevertheless I began my whole upper body routine, starting back at the beginning where I always do when it's been too long. 8 lbs, 5 sets of 10 reps instead of 12. I did most of my back stuff--seated rowing, another machine thing, and I cut my lat pulldown short by a few sets so I could finish with 15 minutes of cardio. I did my favorite--the elliptical. And I thoroughly enjoyed it, as sweaty as I got. Tanner and I stayed in the parking lot for a few minutes after 7. He's so darling. He was very impressed that I had my own routine and whatnot. I must admit, I found him very attractive when I saw him lifting and stuff too. So there's a good benefit of seeing each other absolutely disgusting and sweaty--it's hot. Oh! I got ready and went to Rachel's, cuz she's wonderful and followed me with her car to take my car to the shop. It...

I went to a cycling class. There are some big, big changes going on right now in my relationship with Tanner. I'm hoping that they're all for the better. They're changes aimed at helping us. One of these changes is working out together. This will accomplish several things--boost our confidence individually, improve our health, and get us on a schedule with a bedtime. When I realized this step absolutely needed to be taken, I got on 24 Hour Fitness' website last week to see if their class schedule was online. It was! So Tanner and I decided to do the Cycle class Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 5:45 AM. Tuesday and Thursday we will lift from 6 to 7. I've decided that (since my former schedule was different, I lifted three days a week) I need to make a plan for what to work out on those two days. Tuesday will be upper body (biceps, triceps, forearms, shoulders, chest) and back. Thursday will be lower body (calves, quads, hamstrings, gluteus) and abs. I will lift for 4...

Never in my life have I had an issue with constipation. Never, that was, until I took Imodium on Saturday night to stop the incessant bathroom trips given to me by my food poisoning. I don't know what happened, but since that point, my bathroom trips have been few and minimally productive to say the least. In other words, I can't freaking poop. I've been so hungry and at the same time have had no desire to eat because I felt it all getting stuck. I knew there was no place to put my food anymore. I don't like taking medicine very much. I would like to do things as naturally as possible, so logically I Googled, "natural laxatives" yesterday. My resolve in this sad bathroom period? Prune juice. That's right. So Tanner and I went to the store after 10:30 last night. Yeah, don't know why so late, but anyway. I almost forgot why I needed to go in the first place. I remembered how hungry I was, and how I still felt like I couldn't eat. "Oh yeah! Prun...

I've had a lot of strange roommates. I've had cute, quirky roommates who were very popular. I've had roommates who left old dinner on the table for four days. I've had a roommate who faintly squealed about her potato. I've had a roommate whose mother hemmed my jeans. But never in all of this time have I had a reptile for a roommate. In all seriousness, I live with probably one of the most cold blooded individuals ever. She always, always has the heater on. I wake up sweaty it's so hot. It's so hot my other roommate sleeps with the fan on in the winter! I came home today, when every normal individual is walking around in shorts and t-shirts, enjoying the sunshine, when I am bloody hot from walking so far and up so many stairs, when it's perfect weather to open the windows... to an apartment with the heater on. Granted, the last chance I had to talk to her about this I had chills from food poisoning, so I had the heater on. But it really is NOT necessary ...

If there's one thing I know about myself, it is that I have a dire need to be productive. I stayed home from school on Monday, which I surprisingly had zero qualms about. This was partly because I was still feeling very weak, and partly because I always decide that I won't let missing school get me behind. I got up and got ready for the day, sat down and wrote everything needed for Wednesday's preparation in my planner. I then walked to the gas station to buy some Gatorade upon my father's instruction. I hate Gatorade. But he said I needed it more than water because of the minerals and electrolytes and whatnot. It was gross, just like I remembered it. I wrote in my planner according to due date/class time. So first is my 329 class, then mission prep, then Spanish, and then short story. I did my 329 reading on my bed. I also did my short story reading, and had to finish some after Tanner came over. I had nothing for mission prep, and today I have already done the reading...

I am in love. The end.

Well, we all went to Chili's on Friday night--Raytch, Cara, Tanner, Cody, Aric, and I. I wasn't incredibly impressed, but I wasn't complaining. I got chicken crispers with corn on the cob and fries. Wow I'm too weak to think I can even keep typing right now. Ugh. Anyway, we discussed all sorts of lovely things--our summer plans and Cody's charity event that he wants to do. I was feeling OK for a couple hours after dinner when we discussed those things at the Phillips' house. By the way, I have such cool friends. They're so intelligent and wonderful. They all work hard and want to do good things. I love them, and they are such good examples to me. We officialized our plans, and I am so excited! After we were done talking about the first steps for Cody's big event, we wanted dessert. We went to Cold Stone, which, by the way, I'm going to stay away from for a very long time. I've been eating there way too much, and fortunately my weight doesn't ...

Utah ranks lowest in several categories

That Matchbox 20 song, "Push" was on last night in Bamboo Hut. One of the lyrics is "I want to take you for granted." I got to thinking about what a horrible perspective that was in a relationship. I've been taken for granted before, and I have done my best to count my blessings and appreciate the people in my life--not take them for granted. I decided I wanted to write about Tanner. I want to list off all of the things I would miss if I wouldn't have him. And all of the cute things he does. I think focusing on the good brings about more good on both sides. Now any of you who have been around Tanner and I know that we can drive each other nuts. Yep, he drives me nuts! But I love him for it. Let me tell you about the Tanner that you don't know... The one who opens my car door for me, even if I am driving. The one who goes and gets me food and brings it to me at work so I don't starve. The one who buys me frozen yogurt and brings it to me at work becau...

First of all, Bri and Aric put this in their blog, so I thought I'd take it just to make everyone else feel inadequate. Buahaha. Just teasing. But seriously. 112 words Speed test (P.S. I got 118 WPM after a couple more times) And before I start working, I wanted to talk about The Secret. I've been trying to use it the last few days. I always try, but especially the last few days. I use it most days at school to get a good parking spot in crazy BYU parking lots. Granted, this is partly a matter of timing as far as arriving when people are leaving. But when lots of cars are in search of a spot, and I manage to have timing good enough to retrieve someone else's spot, I know it's because I was thinking positive. On Saturday night at work, I was overwhelmed. I really, really needed a slow night so I could get some stuff done for school. It was pretty slow for a Saturday! I was able to get done what I wanted. I know it's because I wasn't saying, "I don't want...

Read this article. Slightly worrisome. http://news.aol.com/health/story/ar/_a/probe-finds-drugs-in-drinking-water/20080309184409990001 Bri, at least you'll have good water if you go to Albuquerque!

So I can't start doing all of my homework without expressing some gratitude. If you haven't gotten the impression, it's been a really difficult week for me. I woke up at 8:15 to get ready for church, after jumping forward an hour, which meant I didn't get a lot of sleep...Around five hours if you were wondering. I sat in bed deciding whether to go to church with all of this stuff I have to do. Something told me I needed to go, that I would be blessed if I went. Then I realized after I walked out the door that it was stake conference and church didn't start till 10. I could have gotten an extra half hour of sleep. Wow, was I stressed. Here I was, short on sleep, not wanting to go to church, with tons of stuff hanging over my head. But I went. I even debated leaving early, "Gosh, I just have so much to do. Surely one hour is good enough..." Nope. He was holding me down in my chair. And it's a good thing. Because I truly needed the encouragement of those ...

There was salt in the air tonight when I walked outside. There was water in the air tonight, pushing the desert away. There was a smell in the air tonight that reminded me of home. No reason for that formatting or a strange attempt at poetry. It just kind of came out like that. But it's true, the air smelled like salt tonight. It was really moist for Utah air. I suddenly recalled nights at the beach with friends, having a bonfire, walking on the pier, smelling the fish that my dad caught so late at night. Nothing describes that feeling, the peace that is brought to me with that smell, with that cold, wet air in my face. I miss California. I shouldn't even be writing a blog right now. I have so much else to be doing. I have a 5 page paper due for one class, two short stories to read for the same class, two short stories and 3 questions to answer for Spanish class, and a short paper due for religion--all this for Monday. Have I been able to do any of it? No. Awesome. Anyway, I...

I'm having some sad feelings that are bringing me down. I don't really want to publicly write about it. Instead I decided I should type some things I'm grateful for so that I can feel better. 1. American Idol. Sad as it sounds, I have something to work toward when Idol is on at night. 2. Heavy metal/screamo. I know many/most of you, my faithful readers and friends, listen to mellow music, as do I. But sometimes there's no other way for me to experience a healthy catharsis without some Thursday or Rage Against the Machine or whatever it be. Whatever feelings you have, there's music for it, so I'm grateful for that. 3. Sleep. I haven't been getting enough of it lately, and my body is exhausted. It's an interesting concept--sleeping. But I love it nevertheless. 4. Coupons. I don't believe that I am cheap, and I won't throw a fit over paying more for my name brand cereal. Some things are just worth it! But I love saving a few bucks here and there. I ...

Oh, the Moment of Truth. I just had a brief yet in-depth conversation with my coworker, Ben, about this horrid show on Fox. I'm not going to lie, I've watched it (three times now--the miss America girl, the gambler, and the New Jersey Jewish woman). I've laughed at it, and I've been somewhat appalled by the things people have done and admitted to. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the show, a contestant can win $500,000 by answering 21 questions. They have previously been hooked up to a lie detector and answered 50 questions. Obviously, 21 of those are chosen, and the contestant doesn't know the results of the test. In talking with Ben, I was able to really sort out my views of this show. The premise is OK, really, if you're a decent person with no skeletons in your closet. Just be honest, and win some money while you're at it. But here are my issues... The contestant doesn't know the results of their lie detector test. He or she could have though...

Fortunately I have an awesome hip and with it boss who's right on top of this blog business. She told me how to do subscriptions so it's not so much work to try to keep up with our friends' and family members' blogs. When you log into your gmail, click Reader at the top. You can add subscriptions that way by typing in the blog addresses. On the left side, all of the blogs you subscribe to should show up, and you can click show "updated" or "all." Obviously for new ones you'd want to click "updated." When you first add the subscriptions, they should all be "updates" because the reader doesn't know you've read them already. So I went through and just scanned all the way down through each blog so that it knows that I've read them and takes them off of the "updates" portion. I hope that makes sense. You all can play with it, but that's a nice way to just have your subscriptions shown to you when you log i...

I went to get a bagel out of the vending machine in the building across the street from my work. I'm pretty sure my milk is bad, so I couldn't have cereal, and I wanted a bagel. Excitedly, I walked up to the machine and peered inside at the vast array of edible substances sitting happily within their slots. And then I look at the bagels. Plain. Honey and wheat. Plain. Honey and wheat. My eyes scanned back over the bagels three more times, hoping that they had read incorrectly, when to my surprise, there were three more rows of bagels right in front of me that my silly eyes had missed. Honey and wheat. Plain. Plain. I ask you all in earnest, what good is a plain bagel? Who on earth likes a plain bagel? You might as well eat 9 pieces of white bread--it's the same nutritional value and a thousand times the carbs. Awesome. "Fine," I sighed to myself. "I guess I'll just get a honey and wheat bagel. I'm hungry." I made my selection; the bottom slot ope...

that you were my first love... I am officially addicted to "The Hat" by Ingrid Michaelson. Seriously, let's talk about feel good groove music. I don't really have anything specific to write about. But I realized I had a big event last week that I have yet to record. Fortunately, Tanner wrote most of if. He's so cute, and I'm so excited just to see where things go with him. My missionary prep teacher (brother Bott) said today that he had 4 people in one section, and 1 in my section, who were called to serve in the Micronesia Guam mission. I thought that was neat. Today was such a hard day. Maybe I'll write about that. It's usually pretty necessary for me to maintain balance by writing. It's just not usually public. Censored Janae--quite possibly a much less dynamic Janae. I got up super early and got ready for school. I got to work at 8:15ish. I had two classes, then an hour between classes because Spanish was canceled for the test. So I studied dur...