In the last several weeks, I'm feeling about 110% inadequate in just about everything I do.
I feel like I suck at both of my jobs. I've missed two meetings at school due to plain irresponsibility and forgetfulness. One time I left a meeting early because I forgot all of my stuff at home. I assigned a Holocaust research topic and a vocabulary word that got several parents angry at me. I was behind on grading for the last week. I am currently facing a huge internal resistance to do this week's lesson plans. I missed a meeting this morning at Blockbuster that I didn't know about; I almost broke into tears because I felt so dumb about it. I called in sick to both jobs yesterday and feel bad about it.
I suck at my calling. I've missed two Sundays' worth of pre- and post-church meetings due to being out of town and due to family stuff; I missed ward visits due to exhaustion; and I missed apartment visits the other night due to sickness.
I suck at being a friend and at serving people.
I suck at being nice.
I suck at listening.
I suck at being a sister.
I suck at interviews for jobs. I suck at caring about finding a new job.
I suck at dating.
Basically, I suck at life.
Time to hibernate.